AWKWARD HAPPINESS
Research with Studio Matejka, in collaboration with Grotowski Institute and Compagnie T-d’U Switzerland, Wroclaw, Poland, 2015.

Performers: Guillaumarc Froidevaux, Zuzana Kakalikova, Magdalena Koza, Dawid Lorenc
Direction: Matej Matejka
Music: Orest Sharak, Guillaumarc Froidevaux, Zuzana Kakalikova, Daniel Han
Lighting: Marcin Wojcik
Live Visuals, graphic designm photography, video documentaction: meg janus

Is happiness something that we seek in another person designing your dreams, desires, weaknesses? The life journey of the two presented couples shows how time puts on the relationship canvas next layers of secrets, surprises and misunderstandings. A moment of happiness appears to disappear in a moment. Did we recognize it at all? From the „obligation to be happy” we hide emotions that not finding the estuary and become a source of confusion. Pulling off the masks, we reveal what we usually hide so willingly – unspoken questions, suppressed desires.


Visualization of
Awkward Happiness was quite a big challenge. The performance was created, repeatedly presented and rewarded. Matej Matejka since the beginning assumed presence of visualization in this realization and I think that he had already a strong idea of the image. He showed extensive experience by giving space of free creative work, mutual sincerity, trust and I am very grateful for it.
My activity started from the familiarize with the performance and its entire existing documentation. By watching materials, reading texts and listening to the sound compositions, I tried to find an emotional layer, which in a sincere manner could translate into my feelings. Actors and their relations became my inspiration. The next step was to find appropriate media and search for proper tools. I tried to connect with the team through interactive activities, imitating their gestures, translating their movement and touch, soak up the atmosphere resulting from the following scenes. It was a very active time of preparation. The creation of images took around four months.

The meeting were accompanied by many conversations, exchange of new ideas and presentation of the prepared materials. Visualizations were based on manual work: drawings, painting, graphic forms. Then were placed into the graphics and assembly programs. A big meaning played a common trials, watchful observation, conversations with actors and artists who prepared music. Continuous processing of visual forms was necessary to synchronize the work with directing, choreography, acting and sound.

Visualizations are controlled live during the performance which allows their natural reactions. Until the last moment before the premiere we were working on consistency of lamps and screen light.
Connection of all means of expression had a chance to appear thanks to the great flexibility of the director and the group. Matej Matejka has made many changes and also created new scenes. The actors demonstrated their creativity in understanding the honest research for new feelings arising from the transformation, and not a small patience. For me it was a great joy and honor to work with such a great team.